“Quick bread recipes are fairly versatile — you can add and substitute ingredients with greater freedom than you can with most other baked goods. To lower the fat, you can substitute some of the oil with an equal amount of almost any fruit puree (applesauce, baby food prunes, pumpkin puree, mashed bananas). You can add [...]

I never liked kissing boys
never thought a boy’s tongue was like a girl’s
like the golden yoke of an avocado
his black seed pressed hard
inside the arches of soft, green places
I never thought a boy was beautiful
not like a girl
never thought his mouth looked like it still suckled
as he slept and dreamed of milk
I never longed to [...]

1977
Zac is holding me and now it’s all worth it. We’re in the backseat of a car, I don’t remember the car much, but I feel her stroking my cheek, I feel me tasting her mouth. The strength of her tongue and teeth are all worth it. I don’t remember everything, only what [...]

A flash of pink in the shaded hollow
stunned, I stand and touch
soft soft, cashmere, petal, baby soft
what I want to be for her
what I want to do for her
in her pocket
in the shadow
in her softness

I have had this recipe for about 25 years, I got it from a friend. I thought I had lost it yesterday and I almost cried! It is the best cookie recipe I’ve ever had. It is great for the “scrub brush of the colon effect” with the wheat bran and oats. [...]

(originally written about 2002. and now so agonizing to read and print, it was almost impossible to post this, I wanted to burn it and cry, loud, long, grieving sobs. but i post it anyway because this was me, for ignorance, or stupidity, it was me at that time.)
My Wife,
I’m sorry we have [...]