my maternal grandmother wrote this note to me during the hardest times of my adult life.  i had checked into a psych ward at Stanford and wasn’t eating.  just a fetal position.  all that was happening was my breathe, in and out.  the funny part is that i was bribed into eating very easily.  looking [...]

The Partridge Family: They are neither birds nor a famly – Discuss.

A Day in the Life
It began with rising from my celibate bed
Added a cuppa and a logon to the wild
And wonderful world of the internet
Where my handle is Sappho Me
So lots of Queers do.
A hot sandalwood bath
With dreams of my lover
Sliding between my legs
Of her soapy hands stoking me to solace.
Bike wings flying me
to campus [...]

[short bio of me. I am 47, middle sister of 6 kids. all of us, except for a brother, were beaten and raped regularly. My mother knew and never stopped it. More about me later.
I received this letter from my maternal grandmother after she died. I was too [...]

I witnessed a murder. The killer knows it. I try to hide. I’m ok for a few days and believe I’m safe.
Then I wake up from a deep sleep. I’m covered with blankets and pillows on my bed. I can’t breathe, and I’m having to fight to [...]

Yesterday I got crabby with H over our usual issues. But then I stopped thinking about what she did to me that was not ok, and started thinking about how much I love her. She got really hopeless about us. That hurts more than anything. She did that on the weekend [...]

I am permanently disabled with Ogilvie’s Syndrome. To read more, go to the link on the right. I am in pain always. I have had 75% of my stomach removed. It has helped some in that I’m not having to go to the E.R. every other night with a pseudo-obstruction, but [...]

I’m having a hard time with what I feel are H’s “demands,” what’s ok and not ok for me to do in order for her to still love me and not go sleep with someone else. One of them was that I was on the computer sometimes when she came home and didn’t get [...]

May 2005
Ruthi, H’s mom, has always talked to H as if she were a same age friend, rather than her child. I wonder if that added additional stress, which she felt needed to be released by cutting herself when H was a teenager.
H said she talked with J a week or 2 [...]

I just found these pages that Heather wrote in a journal we were going to share. I found out about 6 mos. ago she wanted to be with other women most of the time we were married, except for the first 6 mos. This is two years into our marriage.
“This is an experiment [...]